Dreamer!

mommmmmmmmmmmmmyyy!!!

2010-08-29T18:50:00.001+08:00

mommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmy come back fassssssst!!!
>.<

yeah. i'm 15 and i miss my mommy. so what?

those conversations...

2010-08-29T02:29:00.001+08:00

yer i still miss them.

but that doesnt mean i want you back :P

HAHAHAHAHA

suckkkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

get away.far far away from meh :3

thank you

2010-08-28T20:23:00.003+08:00

thanks for walking into my life and walking out of my life.

save my energy of shooo-ing you out.

arigatou~

its done :D

2010-08-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

yer yerr yerrrrrrrrrrr!!!

final exam is done!! :D

bwahahahha..

and wow. that physics teacher sure got super time or she's just very rajin. dunnow.

our physics paper 1 is marked and given to us already.

blerh. i am happy for what i got :D

just less 10 from grace's mark.

HAHAHA. its aorite.

i'm pleased since i didnt copy anyone at all :)

teheeeeeeeeeeee!!!

up and down

2010-08-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

none of my blog post tiltle ever matches with its content. FML.

what ever.

i'm Home Alone again,this year, for...about 5 days.

yeaaaaaaaaaa i might be happy, in the morning, but seriously, when its night, i might cry. yer yer. i'm barely 16 but still i miss my mommy tho sometimes i say bad things about her. tehee.

i can be owkay if there's enough food. like seriously.

grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

exams not finish yet, but it will tomorrow.

and then we(friends and i) planned to go out and eat after school.

yer yer yerrrrrrrrrr!!!

cant wait, but seriously, they might think i'm joking when i said i have no money, but its true. lol.

i really dont,but then this morning i asked mommy for money, saying that i need to pay for my tution fees(which is true, i was supposed to pay on monday. FML.sorry mr.koh~~) and she gave me rm50, which is the fee, and i asked for..ehem..obviously moeeeeeeeeee. and she gave me around 10 or something , i didnt count. bwahhahahah.

but heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey! its been weeks since i asked her for money..since its puasa time and i puasa too..(sometimes) at school. well, my puasa is not eating la.just drinking :)

ahaaaaaaa! i lied. i have money bah, but i just dont want to over spend it.

and because i was nurtured to be thrifty. bwahahhahaha. i lied again.

muh plans for tomorrow is that, exams, fun,food.friends, TALK.

saturday : wake up early,laundry,shoes,house,and JDRAMA MARATHON. i seriously need to watch the cd nat gave me like..months ago? but ..aha. havent got the time to watch it,but aaaaaaaa yo now i do :)

sunday : church? alone? we'll see..SS? again? we'll see.

ahahahhahahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

WTF am i so hyper? its not even the end of exam. FML. i'm gonna regret this tomorrow.

failure

2010-08-21T01:23:00.002+08:00

i am so dead.

i'm totally sick of failing.

but i cant help it if i'm born stupid.

this exam , final exam, i am sure, 100000000000000000000000000000001% that i cannot even obtain 30 marks..or 20..or 10..or even less, for assmaths.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!

i feel extremely sorry for mommy. i let her down..again.
in fact,i let her down ever single time.

*inserts Simple Plan-Perfect *

sorry mommy :'(
imma failure in numbers.

exam.

2010-08-08T16:27:00.002+08:00

FML

exams coming and i havent study a single shit.

thats totally gonna make me feel like shit.

and poop shit.obviously.

argh FML .

just hoping i wont fail the sc subjects again.

all i can hope for is that i pass the pass mark.

and that is 45.

WTF i am so stupid i kenot even obtain 40.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFML.

bitch made me angry .

2010-08-02T20:02:00.003+08:00

asshole!

she did it again ! TODAY.

I HATE HER SO FREAKING MUCH .

it seriously IRRITATES MY EYES/MIND/HEART/SOUL whenever i hear her say " YOU NEED TO THINK" THINK THINK THINK.

would you mind saying " YOU FUCKERS NEED TO FUCKING THINK" since we're so stupid.

i hate you. not only me, but almost the whole class(hopefully they got my back on this).

fucking hate you.

what are teachers there for anyway? TO ASSIST US FUCKERS!

but you asshole fucker keep on telling us to THINK as if when we THINK we'll get the answer straight away.

FUCKER you need to be there when we have problems not tell us to THINK THINK THINK.

like seriously, there's no other word in your vocabulary than THINK?

go fuck urself

favouritism.

2010-07-30T21:56:00.004+08:00

uhh...it actually "pilih kasih" in malay, but i dont know what is it in english, so i just google-ed the answer.hehe.

so okay, whats up with favouritism?

yeah. i think teachers in my school has it, well some has, some doesnt.

obviously i've seen atleast 2 teachers who show this favouritism.

one is my form 3 history teacher, another one is that bitch who teaches me maths.

ok ok. so this history teacher(all teacher lah, make it easier) doesnt like it when student make noises right? well, i've noticed that if the top student is noisy, the freaking teacher wont even scold them or tell them to stand outside CR or blahblahblah.

but if i, or any other non-top student make a single sound, we are told to stand out side CR, scold at or even go to detention class.(maybe la.not sure~)

and i would be liddis.. "WTF."

and then that bitch again,who teaches us maths.

she's weird.really she is. i'm not making up stories or what ever.

this is what she said the 1st time she entered our CR ..

" i dont like to see bottles on your table, or even your handkerchief on the table or your shoulder. it irritates my eyes"

with her stressing on the word " IRRITATES".

well you know what irritates me!?

your favouritism !!!

Grace and Azmath(top studentblahblah) have their bottles on the table almost everyday, and yet she never scold them.

but if i, or any other non-top student have our bottles on the table, she would tell us, as if it was a warning to not put our bottles on the table ever again.

aishhhhhhhhhh.

my hair and hate.

2010-07-29T22:36:00.003+08:00

cut my hair today.

nothing much...changed? i guess.

it still looks the same to me..haha.

its the 1st time i cut my hair this year..ohohohoho.

i was trying to keep it long..but..urghhhhhhhh..i found out last night that i have split ends~~

anywayz....i freaking hate maths now.more than i hate addmaths.

why? its because of the teacher.

just because we're the so call "good" class, doesnt mean we're sooooooooooooooo good in everything we do.asshole bicth.

whats the use of a teacher if you wont freaking teach us!?lazy asshole.

"you need to THINK.and i expect you to be very good, because all of you are in the best class"

and guess what? she emphasizes on the word THINK and BEST, at the same time, she makes her eyes bigs, and her facial expression are super annoying that it makes me twitch a bit and wanna punch her in the face.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I HATE MATHS !! she's making maths harder ! that bitch.

i think i'll like addmaths more than maths now.

hate it.

2010-07-26T20:38:00.002+08:00

blah i hate school and i hate how the teacher changes the way she teaches just because her niece is home schooled.

like wtf, thats your niece and we're just your student. teach us as how a teacher would teach her student bangang!!!!!!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

psycho.

2010-07-25T21:34:00.003+08:00

i must admit that i might have some psychological sickness or something.

as of today, or now, i am currently feeling sad and depressed and want to kill myself and just be done with life.

i dont know what had happened that make me feel this fucking way.

i hate it.

i want to cry, so bad. but i just dont know what to cry about and who to cry to.

yes, i need someone else's shoulder to be there when i cry.

but no i cant talk about it. i dont know why.see? what a psycho.

i dont wanna be alone anymore.i'm so tired of it.its suffocating.

i'm scared.

secret

2010-07-23T01:46:00.004+08:00

you know what..

i think i love you :(

oh noes. this is so damn not right.

zzZzz...

feeling weird and hoping those feelings wont bother me again. i dont wanna love you. and thats final.

and i am hungry.

i am sure i'll have gastritis by tomorrow morning.

OH FML.

and i cant sleep.

now is 1.49 am.

just a couple more minutes till 2AM and i'm sure the 2AM korean band would be proud :)

hahaha

s' been a while~

2010-07-22T17:22:00.002+08:00

oh hai!

its been a while since i last updated.

nothing much happened.

1) that person was still alive and healthy,we were chatting the other day.

and last night that person IM-ed me , but i wasnt even near the laptop. instead i was in my parents room trying to get my speech right.

2) second sem. exam is coming and almost all of the teachers said they're trying to finish all of the syllabus before the exam. i am like "wtf..wanna kill me now?"

3) i am a self certified SHAWOL :)

4) lately i like to stay back at school for no reason. i just hate going back home...there's nothing much to do at home, and i am not able to do my homeworks with all of the attracting distractions..like TV, Comp, food, pillow..bed... omg~~~~

5 ) i feel like the time is getting on faster and faster... i cant believe its almost the fasting month for the muslims. and then i cant believe that after the fasting month, i'm actually going out of malaysia for the 1st time.. but there's nothing interesting about it anyway, but i'm still happy and excited and look forward to that day to come :)

6 ) i am sick..for the 3rd time this year..with sore throat and then annoying flu. WTF i am so weak. stupid immune system ~~

7 ) i have this strong passion to learn other language, for example, chinese :) since i look like one but cant talk like one ..ZzZzzz....

8) i am sleep deprived. please help, what to do.. ZzZzz !! >.<

lol. thats all :)

but i still miss that someone~ and i miss that someone's voice~

i miss youuu!!

2010-07-15T18:20:00.002+08:00

OHMAIGAWDDD.

you'll never know how happy i was! i nearly cried.

thank God too,i actually asked God last night in my prayers about you. like, where are you,where have you been, are you busy or are you dead or are you something something.

and jjang!!

there you are.

atleast i know you're alive and nothing bad happened to you.

abcdefghijklmnopqrstvwxyz

2010-07-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

its been a while..

and now i miss you so bad.

we're not even close, but a you were a good friend.

i use past tense because i dont know when we're gonna talk to each other again....like we used to.

maybe thats the last time.

look at this equation..

busy you+busy me x our own life(work,school,friendsblahblahshitsz) = no more talk.

i dont even know if thats a correct equation :(

see , i reaaaaaaallly reaaaaally miss you...

sometimes i actually wait for you..

i dont know why i did that.

so i think i am stupid.

i like you, as a friend, a good friend to talk about something i dont even dare to talk about with my friends at school or even a family member.

i miss you :(

nah i hope all of your eyelashes gugur because of me missing you so much.

HAHAHA.

IMYSFM :)

missing you.

letting it all out

2010-07-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

1. i still feel guilty. what a stupid stupid thing i did back then

2. i am starting to love physics. omg. i hope its true.

3. now chemistry is making me grow pimples. more and more. wtf.

4. i dont have a reason to hate somebody in school, but i still hated her. WTF is wrong with me?!

5. havent cried yet. wtf is wrong with me!? again!???

6. i am sleepy. i hate doing notes. i dont even read them....its all for the teachers to check anyway. FML. F their L.

7. i've found a way to not get easily distracted when doing homeworks, and that is to listen to hymns. yes. i listened to You are My Hiding Place and You are Mine, and ON eagles' wings and so on and so on.....

and for the first time ever finished my assmaths homework. the one due last tuesday and the one due tomorrow. thank you lord :)

tears doesnt fall.

2010-07-06T18:20:00.004+08:00

i wanna cry.

its a must...

because i cant open myself to other people and i cant talk it out.

words that come out when i speak would be...words that doesnt make sense.

thats why i've been wanting to cry for so long.

but somehow i cant.

i've listened to some tear-jerking songs, but the tears still wouldnt come out.

now some may say i am a lunatic.

probably i am.

bitch made me angry.

2010-07-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

dont tell me to do shit i dont wanna do.

if you do, i'll make shit out of you.

this happened this morning.

some bitch called me up and told me to go to school.

i was, of course, like " WHAT THE FUCK "

and i asked why and bitch told me they lack one player to play ..i dont know what game.

and since i dont know what game it was, of course i wouldnt know how to play it. right?

but still, bitch forced me. and i kept on saying no no no.

because i dont know how to play, i've planned to do something today that is more important than going to school on saturday without having any curricular activities except for that inter class game. and i dont have any transportation to go to school.

like seriously, it is far to walk from home to school. and its the same with from to school to home.

like fuck,forcing me and stuffs.

just because i live near the school doesnt mean i can always make it.

if i said i am lazy and dont wanna go, that means i wont go.

so just go fuck your life.

bitch kept on calling me but i ignore all her calls. she called the house and i pulled the phone line from the phone. she called my cellphone and i didnt answer, and then switched it off.

if i said NO that means NO. fuck.

sometimes you can force me to do stuffs i dont wanna, but sometimes you cant. and i wont let you force me anymore. stupid bitch.

of course, i feel a little bit guilty, but i dont care.

if they wanna do their work, they should've confirmed earlier on who's gonna play and who's the other player thats gonna back up when one of the player cant make it.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

and now i feel like the whole player are gonna hate me.

but dont worry bitches, if you hate me, i'll hate you too.

fuck.my.life

fuck.your.life.MORE

oh goodbyez

2010-07-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

i told you goodbye is never an easy word to say :(

!!!!

so whats up with all the goodbye thing-ies you may ask.

well, my oniichan is continuing his studies already. and he's gonna be away for 5 years :(

of course, it would be almost the same when he was in SMESH, but not, its different.

when he was still in SMESH he can still come back home in the weekends and during the school holidays and during festive season.

but now? now?? no.
maybe...he'll be back during their sem. break, which i dont know when.

omg. i cant believe he's really doing it. i never knew this was what he wanted to be..lol ?

well, good luck and do well you freak :)

i'm not gonna cry anymore if one of my siblings are not with me.
i do realise that we need to become independent so... yeah.
blaaa...

so like, 5 years from nao and i'll be somewhere in college or even university. wtf? thats olddd..aiyak.

a friend told me, as you grow older,you would want to act more childish..

i think its true. lol.
ahahahahahahawtf

2010-06-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

goodbye is never an easy word to say.

T^T

i cant believe it...

take care.do well and goodbye :(

ILY ♥

happy but crying

2010-06-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

yer.

tis true.

a reason

2010-06-26T22:24:00.003+08:00

yerr yerr yerr!!!

i ate alot today:)

and i am very very very

G.R.A.T.E.F.U.L

♥

and somehow i kinda missed him.

all blame to my butthole cousin who never gets tired of asking me about him.

as if i know or care about him anyway. haiz.

i want...

2010-06-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

to cry but it doesn't want to come out.

FML.

ughhhhhhh.

walking down memory lane...psft..

2010-06-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

so today went to Gaya Street.

a place i've been longing to go since last year, why?

because i wanna see the puppies,kittens,rabbits and tall foreign humans.

haha.

and today i did!! OMG the puppies are adorableee!!!

i saw foreign humans too! super tall. and white. XD

and i saw kittehs and rabbits! :D

and what i makes me feel nostalgic was...

there's this shop, full of chinese traditional medicine.

when i was younger,and when i have to pass that shop, i would always hold my breath for oh so long i dont know.

but now, i dont even need to hold my breath,i just walked pass by. it was weird.

when i think back of what i did when i was younger.

i mean, i did that holding breath because i just cant stand the smell and ...ugrhh!! i really hate that shop when i was younger.and i think i nearly puked one time when my sister drag me there. lol. i didnt though, i was just like..in the verge of throwing up. and i ran outside and away from the shop. its like, the one place i need to pass before i can enjoy watching the puppies in cages. OMG.

come to think of it now, its kinda funny and stupid.

hahahahaha.

well, happy fathers day and....

i'm going back to school again by tomorrow. i HATE it.

FML.

i cut my nails short and now its looks fugly. i've always like long fingernails because ......

yeah. i like long fingernails.

so..goodnight~ and wish me luck tomorrow!!!

crying

2010-06-19T19:20:00.002+08:00

crying helps one feel better.

true? yes for me.

i cried a lot lately for no particular reasons.

yesterday i cried when i listened to SHINee's Noona is pretty piano ver. the person who recorded the piano version kinda made it sad..or slow. i dont know. i feel it was sad, then i cried.

and then i listened to Onew's The name i loved, and again cried. i was like WTF is wrong with me?

hmnn..i guess thats normal. once in a while its good to do that,helps me to release some stress or some emotions thats been inside of me for oh so long.

and then just now i cried. again.

why?

mum and dad ate up all of the dinner food. and they only left me and oniichan some vegetables.

T^T

i am freaking hungry.

so i cried alone, in the bedroom while listening to Lucky.

haiz. WTF!!!

animal abuse?

2010-06-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

wtf.i'm crapping.

anyway, is there any other way for us animal lovers(doesnt matter what, cows,dogs,cats or even pigs) to just kill the animal abuser!?

i freaking hate them. what they did to those precious animals will only lead them to being a real human murderer, so might as well just kill them now or they'll kill us.

i seriously hate them. the shouldnt excist in this world. NEVER. EVER. they should just die. or die slowly like what they did to those precious animals. dont matter what, even monkeys or aligators or horses or what ever! as long as they're abusing animals, they should die/feel what the animal feel when they abused those animals, those poor,animals.

i'm sick and tired of those monsters! dont they atleast have a heart?pity those animals a bit!? have a mind?!!??? have feelings!?? WTF are they anyway!?

>.<

if i can kill them,i would.

1st i would gather all of the animal abusers around the world, and then i would bomb them.so we safe spaces AND energy to dig their graves/bury them.

ha.

friday.

2010-06-18T11:27:00.003+08:00

o hai ~

its friday today~

if today is a school day i'd be happy. but its not. its the holiday and i feel the opposite of happy since the school holidays are ending T^T

i havent finish 3 assignments that is due next week. FML.

2 for moral and 1 for sivik. but for the sivik part, a partner said she will do everything and leave the rest to us after she finishes the work. so the work she gave us(me and tika) are printing,editing words and so on and so forth.

i hope..i reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally do hope she did what she had promise. but i'm still worried. haiz.

sometimes i feel like the mom and sometimes i feel like the kid when i'm with them :(

anyway, i slept around 3am last night, since i was watching SHINee's YunHanam.

its super illegal now to upload anything thats like, "theirs" , so i have to watch is quick or else i'll miss the show since youtube are deleting videos now. *sigh*

even my account was suspended since i uploaded Tegomass' songs. bwahahahhaa!

*sigh* i cant believe its friday now. FFML.

oh ya. and i was supposed to give Nini a bath yesterday, since daddy said he wanted to bring him/her(WTF! the sex is still unknown. haha) to the vet today.

but i forgot and when it was evening, it was already raining...so maybe next week my sister can bring Nini to the vet since she's finishing her...somethingsomething there :)

hahaha. its really weird. really.

Oniichan came back, my sister leaves for KL.

so now my sister is coming back, Oniichan leaves for Kelantan.

not sure how long he's gonna be there..

WTF!?

i'm gonna miss him for sure although he's a total asshole :'(

kthnxbainao~

ah shots~

2010-06-16T21:07:00.001+08:00

wtf.

i was never scared of shots/needle before.

but i was.just now.

i myself was like WTF moment but get over it as i know i am braver than that.

lol.

and i did, i just let mommy poke me with that needle, i looked away though...haha.

i've been told since i was a kid to not look when the needle pokes into you or something like that.

mommy told me that, cuz she said it'll hurt more.

wtf. i dont know.

but i believed her and from that onwards, i never even take a peek when receiving shots :)

lol.

wtf, i thought H1N1 is over ~~

oh taylor~

2010-06-16T09:41:00.002+08:00

the worst thing ( i think) when listening to Taylor Swift's song is wanting to have some one special. wtf.

my current favs would be "The other side of the door" and "fearless".

like, blahhh Swifty, you really do make me wanna fall in love.

but that doesnt stop me from listening to her musics more :)

Swifty FTW!!!

names.

2010-06-15T17:36:00.002+08:00

whats the thing with name?

well, apparently, my family members and relatives doesnt really know which one is my name.

they mixed up all of my cousins and even my sister's name like rojak until i look at them and told them what my name is, and then they would say " OH YA! i forgot~ haha"

as if its funny.

seriously, its not.

even my mom sometimes forgot what my name is. wtf.

she called me by my sister's name once. i was like wtf...

my aunties are the most annoying ones.

i dont know,are you that old to forget such name?!

you would always tell me to do this and that, work for you, help you and blah blah, and yet my name is the thing you forget about?

=.="

of course, i'm making such a big fuss over names, but seriously, a name is important.i may not have the reasons now but i do know it is important.

would you just go out and tell people " hey,i'm 156cm tall,loves jpop so much, in love with YUI and Tegoshi Yuya, likes to sleep and eat and chat and poop etcetc"

so, what would people call you? crazy?inlove?short?

that doesnt sum up to one person, and that is you/me. ehee.

a lot of people can be crazy,inlove or short. so how?

my name...is it that super hard to remember?

+.+"

too bored.

2010-06-14T23:57:00.002+08:00

hi. i'm aj,i get bored easily. but can be entertained by the simplest stuff ever.

i get hungry easily too. and only certain food can overcome that hungryness in me.

i tend to want to cry even though theres no particular reason for me to do so.

and to cry with out a reason is easy for me, i'll just search for some sad songs and reminiscence on some sad memories and bam,there you go, i am crying.

i am a person who people can tell their secrets to, but not me, telling them my secrets.

i am also a hypocrite person.seriously,people need to think twice about what i said. you really should.

secretly, i'm living in a life full of dreams and fantasy.

but one by one, it is crushed by a monster called reality which i really like to kill sometimes.

cuz we all know it sucks. alot.so FML.

i have a lot of ambitions but then again, it is crushed one by one as i grow older and understand more about what i wanna be and how the journey of being what i wanna be is like. it sucks.

all of it is associated with the word EDUCATION. wtf. we all need it, of course,its the best weapon, well it is. i never deny it. but, can i really kill you with education? oh yeah i can, if i study a lot about chemistry, i guess i can :)

oh but wait, i hate chemistry. so how? =.="

the only subject i like at school has always been english, but lately, my marks are dropping. wtf is happening? yeah, so now i realize that my english is bad. wtf. ok , i understand, no more english.

so i guess the subject that i like now is recess time...but, is that even a subject!?

WTF!? i even hate PE, cuz i sweat a lot. and when i sweat, i smell and my face gets oily and my hair gets wet. FFF. our school doesnt have the shower like the school i watch in TV.

so after PE, we would just sit, cool our bodies and then change back into our school uniforms. WTF.

............

i am totally crapping about random shit right now but i dont really care cuz its my freaking blog.

and that some one friend was finally online but stayed for a while only. but i guess that some one is just being invisible. since i talk a lot of craps sometimes. so probably some one doesnt want be to disturb..there for some one went invisible. blah. i dont really care.

and again i said, i know what makes some one do that, but i keep asking myself why.

reality sucks.

when Syllie post of her FS page or...dunnow where, i fell for the words "Dreamers Are Heroes cuz They Dare to Dream."

F. that doesnt make me feel like a hero, but i hold on to those words until now.

so thank Syllie for creating such words or else this blog wont even exist. hahaha.

i am bored and sleepy.

i think i should sleep now. my back still hurts. its a pain being not a girl not yet a woman. seriously it is. and i dont even wanna think of what will happen when i am a woman. WTF.

ok. so my mistake for all those random shit.thank you for reading :)

PMS.

2010-06-14T13:34:00.003+08:00

FML.

my back hurts.

SHINee lovess :)

2010-06-13T20:15:00.003+08:00

i blame my korean loving friends for making me fall in love with SHINee.

but i also love them for doing that.

haha.

so,i discovered SHINee when i listened to their song RDD @ SMESH,when we went for the...um..i forgot. ehe!

and so i listened to that song,ONLY.

and it ends there. i'm not really a kpop fan.

so times goes by and then during kaamatan's eve(lol), i was at kampung and obviously bored since theres something wrong with the internet there..

so bored me flipped through channels and finally settle on some korean variety shows, Dream Team. it was funny and exciting at the same time.

and that,was when i discovered SHINee's Flaming Charisma, Choi Minho.

bwahahahahaha! i watched the show and couldnt help but smile at how cute he looks and how nice he is towards his partner and how he..likes to show off.XD

i texted my korean loving friend, Tika, and asked who's this guy and which band he's from and she replied and we started texting about Minho and Donghae. lmao..

so the 5 days of short school hols ended and i went to school, as usual and there, Tika,Era,Anis and i started talking about korean celebrities.

and there i kept on talking about Minho and so,probably Tika was annoyed that i only talked about how he was when he was in Dream Team, so she recommend me to watch "Hello Baby".

another show that involves Minho and his band, SHINee.

and dun dun dun....

there's where i fall in love with the wacky,funny SHINee. seriously!

in "hello baby", they have to take care of this kid,Jung Yoogeun. and i just fell in love with how they took care of him,how they try so hard to get his attention and etcetc.

blahblah.

i really need to get on knowing them more :)

and its obvious that you can tell i like Minho from SHINee.

but nahh.... i love all of them , so funneh :)

P.S : i still love NewS!!! its just that...i'm not updated about them. WTF!?

and i write some better intro about them if i have the time to do so.(seriously, i'm just lazyXD)

what i want,NOW:

2010-06-12T15:29:00.002+08:00

1. Glue stick.

2. Aircond.

3. non fatty but delicious food.

4. is this weird? but i want... friends,now :'(

5. too sleep comfortable without even sweating/waking up with sweats all over.

6. new hair cut.

7. all of my assignments to be finished. (well FML,i'm here and i'm expecting it to be over.wtf)

8. shopping.

9. the shirt i couldnt find.

10. friends.

ok. i repeated friends twice,its obvious i really really need them now.

i'm bored and i want someone to talk to.

some one is not online as frequently as that some one would be. i know why,but i keep on asking myself why. lol.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

oh btw, heres a vid i watch to entertain myself :)

out out out!!

2010-06-10T21:09:00.002+08:00

weheee!

no more staying at that hospital.

blah. its super damn cold and noisy.

why noisy? since the other patient,opposite my grandma,which is just like..3 steps away from me(if i am sitting) has diabetes,and her "machine" is super noisy. i cant even sleep! >.<

and what i meant by her "machine" is her..you know,thing the doctor gave her.like what they gave grandma to prevent her from feeling pain.the PCA machine?? i dunnow.

muahahahhaha.

i hate hospitals. i really hate them. freaking hate them.

so as of today, grandma is being discharged out of that place :)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i am happy. she is happy. family is happy. everybody is happy!

hahaha.

flower :)

2010-06-08T13:37:00.004+08:00

my favourite flower :D

i think i like sunflower more than rose.

haha.

my holiday.

2010-06-07T07:55:00.002+08:00

so...how am i gonna spend my sem hols?

1. Taking Care/ Accompanying grandmama at hospital.

i dont like hospital and thats why i dont really like going there.

its not like i dont like taking care of grandmama. no, she's the only grandma that i love :)

she's gonna do surgery tomorrow, if i'm not mistaken.

i'm sure it'll all go well,i know it is.

scary nights

2010-06-06T22:36:00.003+08:00

have this ever happened to you?

i couldn't sleep well that day.and i dont even dare to close my eyes in the darkness.

so i have my mum's laptop, so i went online and chatted with Natsuki.

and we both agreed we wont sleep. unless the sun comes out the next day.

we didnt chat,but we accompany each other by knowing that one of us is still online.

but i failed to do so, i fell asleep when i was waiting "Hello Baby" to load.

she buzzed me and i didnt realize. i only realize/woke up when she logged out. and that was 5.40am.lol.

to be honest,i am only,reaally reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally alert when there's the sound of a person signing in or logging out of YM . there's a reason behind it,but i'm too lazy to tell.

anyway,so i went to sleep right after that,because there's no one to accompany me via online anymore, so i took up the courage to turn off the lights. and i was glad that i can see the sun already. i've never been so happy to see the sun. FML.

the same thing happened last night. but i just have to force myself to sleep. i took Darcy and Kitty inside my bedroom and keep on thinking wheater i should turn the lights off or not.

like seriously,it was like a battlefield thinking about it. in the end,i took my handphone, pick up Darcy with the same hand and turn off the lights. i mean, i just have to, because the night before,the light have been turned on all night. and i just love mother earth so much. pffsh.haha.

thinking about what i did last night was kinda funny. because its exactly what i did when i was younger, turn off the lights and ran to the bed. i did the same last night. thank god Darcy wasnt crushed. hahahahaha.

tonight i think its gonna be okay, since Grandmama is here,so i think she's gonna sleep in the same bedroom. and my cousin is here too, she's back from her trip to Labuan.

like OMG. i've never been soooo happy to have another person sleeping with me on the big bed. XD

i lost a friend.

2010-06-04T14:39:00.003+08:00

i lost a friend today.

i may not be close with her...

but still, being in the same batch as her.

makes quite a big impact,for me,for her besties,for the teachers,for all of us Stellarians.

i feel guilty of not seeking for forgiveness.

i feel sorry for her besties,her classmates.

but i feel very very sorry for her family.

i've lost a family member before,but somehow its different when you lost some one whom you call a Friend.

its very,very different.

We were planning to visit her tomorrow...

but then received the news that she passed away.

i cant believe it.

Shaneetha is gone.

i know she is happy up there,with God,The Father.

Rest In Peace Shaneetha.

ILY.

7.30am,Friday,4th June,2010.

journey to sem holiday. lulz

2010-06-03T19:23:00.005+08:00

this is what i hate about school holidays.

before we can enjoy school holidays, there goes the teacher,telling us to pass up our books and blahblah.

saying " if you fail to pass,....dun dun dun.."

or " its your fault if you didnt pass up your book"

so today i didnt go to school, one thing is because i am lazy(other schools have already started thier sem hols), i dont have any transportation( i know i'm not crippled and can walk, but i am LAZY) and its because of todays subject.

can you imagine!? english, addmaths,chemistry,physics and maths!? ALL in ONE FREAKING DAY!?

so basically,this year,thursday is my least favourite day.hehe.

i still need to go to school tomorrow though...

cuz, i still need to pass up my moral,addmaths,chemistry file and sivic book.

THANK GOD its not physic book. hehehehhehe. its empty. lol.

i dont really know what i'm gonna do during school holidays...i want to go back to kampung,but there's no point(atleast i know my good cousin is still there and we can be crazy together). My grandma is gonna do surgery on the 8th, so ...i am the one who is selected to take turns to take care of her. .....

hmnnnnnnnnnn...probably need to improve my addmaths,maths and chemistry too :(

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

so tired.

2010-06-02T14:20:00.002+08:00

blah.

i am.

what did i do?

nothing much...

i just slept late last night, i was chatting with Era.haha. so funny,so freakishly funny.

her imagination is wild. lol.

i might not have known that playing audibles in YM is so much fun when you're playing with a crazy person just like you. hahahaha.

like seriously,when i asked her what time she'll sleep, she said..."later...the night is still young"

and i said, " ok,friend me until 0000am."

and we both agreed and she started sending me annoying audibles.

i never really liked audibles because..its annoying and noisy.

but last night was an exception,lol, and it brings back all of the happy memories when i started using an email and was so brand new to YM. haha noob.

so i started getting tired during BM period..the teacher discuss about our exam papers and i cant help but want to lie my head on the hard table...but of course,she didnt like it when we did that...so she said something,and i, as a good student, obeys her. and that is to not lie your head on the table.

blaahhh...but the weird thing is..during English, i was so pre-occupied with making a ribbon out of Grace's handkerchief and talking,as usual. LOL. and yet i wanted to sleep during BM.hahaha

2 more days to sem hol. i cant wait.

and on sunday, i'm participating in an event @ padang merdeka with my friends.

weeeeeeeeeee~ transportation provided so i dont really have to FML~

wahhh....so tired.but i want to edit some pictures of kaamatan to give to my cousin and the teachers day. lol.

15 year old stuck in 75 year old body.

2010-06-01T09:39:00.003+08:00

FML.

why does my neck and back hurts so much!?

i feel like i need to pull my back bone soooo sooo hard!!

and my neck! haiz.

WTF is wrong with me?? >.<

maybe its because of the car ride last night but i didnt even sleep during that car ride back home from tambunanan. FFML.

blahhhh...FM Body.

F YOUR L!!

2010-05-30T09:41:00.002+08:00

warghhhhhhhhhhhh!!

sunday morning ruined as i was locked from inside the house!
FML!

i didnt lock the house when i went to church just now,and then when i came back it was locked!!

who locked!?

i was the last one to leave the house, as my grandma left early to church, maybe 6.50 am.

where i left at 7.05 am.

haiz!! and it only leaves to one person who DIDNT go to church but work instead,FREELOADER!

WARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I HATE HATE HATE HIM!!!!

only freeloading in our house, not doing anything at all. F YOUR L LAHHHH!!!!

now you might be wondering how did i get inside?

well, i used this small wood i found around the compound of our house and used it to open the door. i failed a couple of times before i can get inside.

FML!

mind you,the mass ends at 8.30am and i can only get inside the house at 9.30am.

WTF!? I WAS OUTSIDE FOR AN HOUR!!!!*&@&@*^#*@&%!!!!

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF YOUR L TO THE MAX!!

home alone 2010 short version.

2010-05-29T18:11:00.005+08:00

ohai!

i'm all alone now. like what happened last year when my parents and my sister went to Philippines.
but that was like..for 4 days or something.

now its only a day and a half,until tomorrow after noon :)
and then i'll tumpang my aunt to go balik kampung.weeeeeeeeeee~

anyway,they(parents and oniichan) left at 9.ooam today. so...i was alone since then.
since i was very bored,i cleaned the house..and then i ate my breakfast and then i take my shower.
and i was at the computer lah since i've taken my shower. i didnt leave. ..well i did.just to take some water and some food :D

being alone is being sad and happy all together in the same time.

why sad? well, there's nobody to cook. and daddy has taken the astro card with him to kampung,so i cant watch TV..its not the same. its not.

so why happy? duhh..do i need to tell? hahahaha.

i got the house all by myself today! teheeeeeeee! so fun. but since i was alone,and its creepy, i turned up the volume of the music. blah. its been repeating since 12.00pm..so boring. hahaha.

i already packed my stuffs for tomorrow. blah. only one night stay,my bag still looks as if i'm staying for 3 nights. haizz...

anyway, cam-whoring session since i was bored. i ate ice cream as my lunch today,haha.so kesian XD

Darcy.

WTF.the bell is gone.

the yellow Kring Kring bell.

>.<

did she ate it or something? i just hope it fell somewhere around the house.

morning kissu!

hahahaha.

*bleh.i havent even taken my bath yet this time.haha*

yeay LUNCH!

ice cream yeah!

*enjoying*

hahaha.

i love ice cream,home alone, and my new camera!!!

i love how the photo turns out after i've taken them :D

teheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

i hated it.but....

2010-05-29T00:41:00.004+08:00

i hated it.

but i need it.

what is it?

FACEBOOK.

dun dun dun...

yup. i sign up again.

why? alot of reasons.

one of them?

ok.

a friend of mine keeps on saying " nahh..thats why lah. you go delete your facebook,now you dunnow what we're talking about"

or "if you want the video then activate your account back!!"

or!!

"haihs! thats why lah you delete your facebook! now its hard for me to tell..."

seriously,does it not..annoy you?

for me it does.cuz i'm a slightlyyyyy short tempered person. you know that :P

so i created a new account since the account i used back then was full of ...(i cant use alien but nat owns it..HAHA).. um..full of...assholes.

yeah.assholes :D

even though i tried to delete them..somehow the numbers of assholes would not decrease.now why the hell is that!?

hahaha. so i created a new one, and added friends and stuffs.

and i...Aj have decided to use facebook for connections matters only.

wtf.

only for friends and family.

unwanted/unknown assholes will be rejected :D

OK! thats all.

the pictures of teachers day celebration will be uploaded later :)

bai~

teachers day celebration at SMSM

2010-05-28T19:19:00.002+08:00

so yesterday we celebrated teachers day at school.

it was fun.really.

and i said sorry to ann too.

thank god she forgive me..or maybe she didnt..but i dont care, as long as i've said my sorrys.

anyway, so i arrived at school early, since daddy said he wants to jalan early to work, so i have no choice but to follow. or else i'll have to walk. FML.

and then the event started with teachers walking from the staff room to the hall, like some runway or something, and all of the students will cheer. you know why? because the teachers were all dressed to ...impress? LOL. its not everyday you can see them all dressed up like that. haha.

and so it starts...blah blah.

so i volunteered/Bunny wants me to get up on stage to give the presents to the teacher. so i agreed. and i choose our Chemistry Teacher since she's so nice to us and very patient with some of us...slow creatures in learning chemistry.

so when we were getting ready to get up on stage, Grace wants to exchange the presents with me, hers was our History Teacher..i said "no" since i've choosen the presents already, but she kept on pestering me and i actually felt sorry. (LOL)

so Fiezah was there and she helped me by saying " Grace, if you want to exchange your gifts with Aj, then you have to promise that you'll give your bento for one month"

and she immedeatly said "YES".

so i exchanged the presents with her.

i dont really have to worry. her bento's are all nice one :D

and i'm not mean. its called forces in equilibrium. bwahahhahaha WTF.

so after that, there were performance from students and teachers...

and really, its not everyday you could see your English teacher in a school uniform,acting like us! teenagers! hahahaha.

and its not everyday, on every occasion you could play futsal against your teachers, you could see your very very strict principle DANCE! OMG. she danced to the song, SAYANG KINABALU.

if you were there, in the hall, like omg,your ears would've been useless by now if you dont like VERY VERY LOUD noises. hahahahhaha.

to sum it all up, it was a fun day. i think its the first time ever that i've had such a great teachers day. i mean, ever since i was schooling at SMSM, the teachers day celebration was kinda boring..but this year was fun :D

i've got pictures! BWAHAHAHHAHAHA. taken with my lame new camera. lol.

but i think i'll upload it later. i'm too lazy,and the internet connection sucks. very much.

so bai :)

my fault?

2010-05-26T19:29:00.002+08:00

i think it is.

seriously, if it wasn't for my big mouth and eagerness to see a fight happen between Addel and Ann.

so heres the thing, Addel has been feeling this anger(or something) since i don't know when. but she said she's been holding it up. so she ignored Ann. for a couple of weeks already,and i didn't realize that. so..yeah.

so on monday, i went back home together with Ann, and she talked about how addel ignored her and stuffs. and she even said that," maybe if you can, could you ask her whats wrong?" so i said yes. but the real thing is, i know why Addel ignored her, but i just don't wanna tell her. for some reason.

and the next day, i asked Addel what happened and told her what Ann said.

and things got a little bit heated up today.

Addel confronted her. and they have this small talk fight.

so i'm wondering..like..if i didn't tell Addel what Ann said, maybe this thing,their fight wouldn't have happened.

i heard Ann cried later after that fight. and she cried until the last bell rings.

but.., Ann has something to change . there are people around her that doesn't even like her but pretend to like her. i don't like her ,i don't hate her but sometimes i hate her for what she has done to a friend, or me.

but i feel freaking guilty for the fight that has happened between the two of them. i do.

cuz if i didn't tell Addel about what Ann said, maybe the fight wouldn't have happened.

but i do know, that eventually theres going to be a fight between them. so i'm just here as a catalyst to their fight then. lol.

i still need to say sorry though, i don't know why. i just need to. to Ann.

i feel sorry for her too though. especially when i saw her teary eyed when i was going back home with Ros.

haiz!!

i feel guilty here. i'm sorry ann. (pssft. what a freaking hypocrite.)

are you allowed to do that?

2010-05-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday was monday,we have our usual assembly in the hot hall.

its all the same thing happening, teachers talking,some reports,sometimes they will be some shows/presentation by students, and it'll end with the principle talking and making conclusion about the report of last week or blahblah.(WTF)

anyway, so yesterday, a lot of people were punished and was told to stand at the back because they forgot to bring their discipline book.. and somehow, 3 particular girls caught the principle's eyes and called them to stand on the stage.

so maybe this one girl annoys the principle so the principle hit her. at her shoulder, and mind you, we can definitely hear the sound of the principle's hand hitting the little girl's arm.

so blahblah.

i think the girl cried after the assembly and probably went and call her parents or something.

and today i heard from Dean that the principle has been sued by the little girl's uncle/aunt.

bwahahhahahaha.

i dont know if its true.but...hehehehhehehe!!!

if its true, our school is gonna be in chaos!! :D

GEEEE!

2010-05-22T18:22:00.003+08:00

geeeeee! :D

went shopping a while ago..like i said :P

went to karamunsing since my parents wanna buy a new washing machine(FINALLY!OMG. YES), dad wants a new mouse,mum wants to find something...blah..

so,at first, dad just dropped us at some bus stop cuz he wants to go somewhere...something about car road tax or something.

and so we went inside,and i went straight to Watson. they've actually renovated the place,and now its more organized and bigger than before.i wanted to buy some moisturizer,but i didnt bring my money. and i know mum wouldnt want to pay for it,she would always say something like " what for...what forr....see the price.." ok. maybe its a bit expensive for a small botle of moisturizer,but its good. i've been using the facial wash and its good. haiz.

mum only bought something for oniichan :(

and then went to signature to buy some file. mum bought 25 of the file, i asked why,and she said for the kursus thinggy. lol. 60cents file.bwahahhaha.super asian.

anyway, after that mum wanted to buy a headband, or something like that. we found a lot. but that "a lot" is not the type that she wants. she wants simple,black,small.

so we searched and i found a simple one, black,big. she said no.so again.we searched and searched,and i found one again. this one small, black but have small ribbons on it. she said no.

and then again, searched,found one, but she doesnt like it,cuz its too flashy. wtf.

finally we arrived at some place,and found the ONE she wants. =.=" and i told her i want one too,so she said choose, i choose a yellow coloured headband and she said its ugly. wtf. and so i choose a white one,and she said its too expensive. WTF?

i ended up NOT buying anything. FML.

but now here's where it all began to feel awesome.

we went to some kedai and survey some washing machine. and i choose the one that we're buying. BWAHAHAHAHA. cuz its cheaper,less vibration,less noise blah blah.something less lah.

tehee!

but it doesnt stop there. last year i broke my camera,well,not me,but it died. wtf. can a camera die? anyway,the camera went super useless after that and cant be fixed.or probably can,but my dads too lazy. so i smashed it into pieces and kept the frame. lol. and now! i own a new camera! its old but at least i can still take pictures! :D

dad bought it for me since i was pestering him/mum since last year.HAHAHA.

and guess whats the condition? STUDY HARD. FML. i may do this,but i cant promise.lol.

so yeah. i think thats all. oh and another FML story, my parents bought a new cellphone for oniichan . FMLFML.

dats all BAI.

owari .

2010-05-22T13:22:00.003+08:00

bwahahahahha! ITS OVER!! sem exam is over!! i can chillax nao :D

and watch animes,movies,dramas blahblah.

no more books.bwaahhahaha.

well thats what they said. " no more books after this"

i can do that. except that we need to pass up all of our notes.

DUE : ALL. WTF?

my biology notes are almost finished,but i hate to do the digestion part. physics? FML. i hate doing it. i make short notes,i hope its okay. bwahahhaha. chemistry? no need.the teacher said there's no need to do notes.cuz she give us her notes,on a paper :P

history!? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh FML. BM? the nilam book. FML. i didnt even read a single book during nilam time. all we do was watch TV/talk. hahaha

blahhhhH! i dont wanna think about it. FML.

hahaha.wanna go....shopping!!! bwahahahha baibai~

true love kiss.

2010-05-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

this word,would always appear in a fairlytale like story.

lol. sometimes i get bored listening about it.

haha.

tomorrow is the last day !! YEAAAAAA! history and maths paper. thank god both are objectives :)

anyway, i watched it! shrek 4ever after!! IN 3D ! hahahaha.

Suria Sabah is awesome.that place,is now in my list of places to go for shopping! and movies! :)

went to watch the movie with family,walrus bought the tickets for us TEHEE!

movie ended at 9pm..went straight back home and i read history and tried sleeping,but cant. since i already slept the whole afternoon. lol.

so now i'm just blogging...

i think i'll sleep after i have a milk. lol

FML! lately i like to drink milk. i hope i can still grow taller though....haha~

lied.

2010-05-14T21:25:00.002+08:00

ok so i lied.

lol. exams not finished yet.

tomorrow's the third day and we have history and english composition. FML.

as for english, i consider myself okay, but as for history, i'm dead meat. like seriously,need to write an essay!? freaking essay!? out of 5 questions we need to answer 3,which consists of 20 marks each. warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! FML FMLFML!!!

i hate reading about the old civilization...there's a lot to remember and elaborate. i just hope the questions that come out tomorrow will be exactly what i'm studying now. lol.

ok. like...10 more papers to go until i finish this exam. haiz.

wish me luck~ byebye!

exam mode.

2010-05-12T15:59:00.002+08:00

lol. a friend asked why i didnt update lately.

1)lazyness

2)my oniichan conquer the computer.

3)annoying parents.

4) new blog.

hahaha~

so anyway, i'm in exam mode nao.

so, i'm gone for good(lol).

2 weeks. WTF so long.

nevermind. time passes quickly bah. and in no time, its the sem hols!! :D

byebye! wish me luck!

oh yeah. i'm planning on failing physics cuz the teacher is so cruel. we havent reached chapter 3 and yet she wants to make questions until that chapter. huh. cruel.very. even my sister,an ex student at SMSM too said she's...cruel.annoying,blahblah.

bwahahhahaha!

double Akira Shock!

2010-04-10T20:43:00.004+08:00

so today i had the akira shock of my life.(sort of..)

when daddy sends me to school today,this morning, i saw a cat.

a dead cat to be exact. lying (obviously) on the road,behind a car,opposite our neighbour's house.

so as a cat lover,i said " awww..pity the cat.."

and then daddy replied " hey..it looks like our cat..."

and i went WTF. " are you serious!? how does it looked like!?" ( i cant see properly lah.too blind.wtf)

and then daddy described the cat...and then i realize that dad's description is exactly like Nene.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went to school as usual,laugh as usual,but i really,seriously,couldnt keep it all inside.

so i talked to Deanna.

and felt better,but still,wanted to cry alot. its such a loss,really.

and i continued feeling like an ass until our curriculum activity ends and walked back home.

i felt anxious while walking back home,because i'm just not convinced that the cat i saw this morning was Nene,and had died tragically being bitten by some stray carnivore dogs.

i passed the spot where i saw the dead cat,the dead cat was gone. i was praying that time,hoping its not Nene,because i told my dad before i went out of the car to check whether if its really Nene that died.

..........

i walked into our house yard and had the mega akira shock of my life.

our motorboat purring cat NENE is ALIVE.sleeping under the car!!!!!!!! OMEGEAAAAASHH!

i ran towards the car,called him out and he yawned and walked towards me,and i HUG HUG HUG him!!!!! and cried!

to be honest,i never felt like that before(seriously.lol),i thought i lost a cat,but i didnt,and i couldnt ever describe how i feel that time!

i cried ! lol.tears of freaking joy.

and now i've learned my lesson,to not let Nene out unless the damn carnivore stray dogs are out of here! (not dead.ok? i love dogs too.just put them somewhere,but not our area. the Kampung Lama area is a good spot to put the stray dogs,cuz there's a lot of immigrants there)

tired-desu.

2010-04-09T23:28:00.003+08:00

today was quite a tiring day for me.

although i didnt do anything tiring.

so i blame it all on the monthly syndrome.

and i also have tuition today,which lasted about 2++ hours and went back home at 3.30++ pm.

watched TV,a movie that i've watched when i was younger,and didnt know the title at all.

lol.

and finally i know. hahaha. but i didnt finish watching it,cuz i was sleepy,so i slept till 5++pm and then as usual,played with Nini.

Frodo was outside with Mum,so blehhh..

hmnnnnnnnnn......

and then tomorrow we have curricular activities.

bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerghhhhhhhhh....

i hate doing kawad!!

wtf. i hate everything thats related with school..

but WTF! why do i wanted to become a freaking teacher!?

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

happy-desu

2010-04-06T19:39:00.002+08:00

today i'm happy.

why? all because of NiNi .

woke up, dream of NiNi flying like some random superdog.

all day at school,keep on thinking about NiNi,cant wait to get back home and play with NiNi.

fed NiNi,and he ate like a pig. he looks like a furball!! (ok.so maybe Nini is a HE.lol.)

played with him again in the evening,he cried when he cant back inside when he already went outside. lolol.

he runs ,gets a huge bark from Frodo when he playfully bites Frodo's tail.

(they still cant get along though..but i know they will..eventually )

and then he sleeps in the weirdest sleep pose i've ever seen in my life.

too bad theres no picture.hahahaha.

both my and sis's cam broke.my cousins cam? something is wrong with the battery =..="

nevermind :)

NiNi may look normal to other people,but to me,NiNi makes me happy and look forward to getting back home everyday! weeeeeeeeeeeee!

dont worry! i still love Frodo :D

he's still the shyshyshy dog i've always owned.

and i think Frodo is kinda jealous,cuz when ever i play with NiNi,he would come near me and bumps his head on my shoulder or somewhere.hahaha.

maigod ! so cute creatures!

dont worry!! i still love the cats ! :D

teheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

happy desu!!

welcoming koinu!

2010-04-05T22:33:00.002+08:00

weeeeeeeeeee!

so happy!

adopted/minta/given a new dog!

went back to kampung on saturday to celebrate easter with my grandmama and discovered that my aunty's dog haz puppies!

2 of them! named : satu(one) and dua(two). funnieh.hahaha.

i dont really know how or why or what happened until the puppy becomes mine :D

but this was kinda the situation when my mum told me i can take one of the puppeh.

"oi you want puppy? aunty T's dog haz 2. go pick la which one you want."

and i went OMGZS!!! REALLY!? MAJIIIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEE??

"yes,go check la outside"

and i went and saw 2 furballs.hahaha!

zomfg! cut the damn story super short,one of them became my puppy!

and it was Dua(two).

welcome DUA~ lol.

seriously,the name sucks.

so i changed it,but without changing the real meaning of the number dua(two).

i changed it into japanese and now its name is NiNi. (dua dua) not twenty two tho.

i mean,you dont call your dog one name ony rite? so its Ni Ni. Ni as in two in japanese.

hahaha.

i told my sister i was gonna name the koinu "momo" but..ngehhhh..hahaha.

will post pictures when i have time soon.

(wtf i dunnow its sex.dad said its male.not convinced.hahaha)

weeeeeeeeee!

welcome to your new home Ni Ni!

feelings

2010-04-01T12:57:00.002+08:00

so what you're feeling now?

happy ? sad? bored? annoyed?

i dont know what i feel now.

i mean, i should be happy now cuz the school gives us one day holiday today. dont know why. again,very suspicious.

sad? not really.why should i be sad?

bored..? kinda. i still have something to do though. homeworks,notes, assignments,translating. well i'm not a translator,but since the book is in bm and ...and..well, i just have to do it since they said " we're not good in english."

yea right. as if i am. i've searched about the depression thinggy and now i have to do the diabetes.

WTF. fine then.you guys will do the presentation,thank you.

i am hungry! very hungry. but there's only fish. wtf. i'm seriously starting to hate fish now.

there's maggi. but 2 packets left. one for tonight. the other one? waghhhh..so lazy to cook now. even if i cook it now,the hunger will be gone anyway. and then the maggi was just a waste. i wonder why that happens. fml.

gonna go see the doctor soon,dad miss called me and when i answer he hang up. wtf?

i'm gonna be there like..an hour earlier than my appointment. fml.

why?

dad said there's no parking space.so probably he's gonna tell my brother to pick me up again like what he did a month ago. fmlmax

arghhhhhhhhhhh....i really wanna talk to someone right now,but i dont know who. i used to call this one person,we chatted for a very long time (thats what she said) and now i hardly call her.

why? dunnow. she've changed.so do i.

haiz.

i hate myself for being talkative. dayum.

my life is so sad sometimes,because i tend to talk alone.lol. ok i know thats creepy.

hahahahahahhahhahahahhaha

red monster on the loose.

2010-03-31T17:33:00.003+08:00

so today was a freaking annoying shitty day for me.

i forgot to bring the moral report that was due today,and i forgot my tatabahasa book.

shit.

i wasnt okay.

i really super hated myself that time.

mega giga hate myself.

i mean yes,of course,a person would tend to forget..right.

but i really really hate myself that time.

thank god the teacher was nice enough to let me pass up my report on monday.

i actually cried that time,not cuz i was scared..or probably i was,but more to because i'm such an idiot for forgetting something important.

and then the damn tatabahasa incident.i actually regretted it,for what i've done. FML.super mega hardcore FMLmax.

i became the red monster. =..="

and i actually yelled at some one because of that.

ugh.. i think i need like..anger management or something.to calm my mood.

i feel kinda sorry to that person,lol.

but that person was kinda annoying anyway,haha.so it doesn't really matter.

keep on asking me the same question when she knows it already. just like someone i hated the most at home.

and you even talked about me outside class room.

you should've known that you've just humiliated me

ok? still what i did to you was of course,unacceptable. i know its not cuz i wont like it if someone did that to me.

so.... i think our friendship's ship will be going somewhere,but not far. yeah.my fault.i realise that so STFU.

freaking red monster.i shall call myself red monster from now on whenever anger/annoyance strikes.

but among all of the red monster on the loose going on,there's also someone who cared for me,so thank you very very very absolutely much. i couldn't express my gratitude towards you since you said "no,its okay".

i love my friends that has been together with me for the past years. ILYSFM!

really i do!

6 months

2010-03-27T21:42:00.005+08:00

i love that song.

anyway,its really fun when you have a friend that shares the same situation as you.

really. you can talk together about how you have the freaking mood swings/disorder and laugh about it.

but when you talk with someone who doesnt have the mood swings,or...what i called it the mood disorder,the might think you're weird and should be sent into some asylum or something.

so today was kinda a good day. i had fun during the christian fellowship club meeting because we have a telematch. the game was totally fun although it lasted only for 2 minutes. yes.2 minutes.

lol.

we have to search for the things listed in the small paper and the 1st group to finish would be the winner. which is us.LOL.

although we didnt find the 12 things listed.we only managed to find 11. kuikuikui~

and then i started to get bored/sleepy during the cadet meeting.

and we have to practice our kawat again! uggh FML.

thank god today was so hot as any other day.atleast there's some wind blowing.

and..oh..nevermind.

kuikuikui~

i think i'm okay now that i shared some of my so called problems with a friend :D

so.hopefully the freaking mood swings/disorder doesnt disturb me anymore.atleast for this week only :D

happy birthday to you you~

2010-03-26T20:50:00.002+08:00

to who?

guess!!

non other than YUI!

happy birthday to YUI YUI!! :D

yeay!

may god bless YUI and may she have the number one chart topper songs of all time!!

ILY YUI~ :)

spirited away~

2010-03-25T17:16:00.003+08:00

so last night i was having dinner with mum and dad.

and the way they ate reminds me of how Chiiro's parents when they ate the food.

like a pig.

seriously.

annoying. so i found another way to be come an annoying person.

today, i was kinda in a bad mood swing.

i hated myself because i forgot how to do the maths, even though i already tried doing it last night.

i was pissed of cuz it was a freaking hot day. a friend borrowed my assmaths book when i told them i still have to finish the today homework that the teacher gave us.

haih.

i havent done the biology and moral report since i'm too stupid to know what to do.

but surprisingly enough,i've finished the handout paper that our physics teacher gave us :D

and its the first time ever that i paid attention to what the teacher is teaching,because its looks kinda interesting,about Force.lol.

but i still dont know how to use some of the formulas.

also i couldnt differenciate between u and v.

which one is initial velocity and which one is final velocity. =.="

i think some of my friends hate me so bad for my freaking mood swings. i dont know.i dont know how to control them.seriously,they just come out like that and take control.

because when we're doing maths,and after i manage to do work,Tira said to me " you're alright now? you can smile now right? hahaha..look at you..blahblah"

and yes, did smile.smile of satisfaction. lol

i'm suppose to be happy that tomorrow's friday,but i cant get too happy.

we have curriculum activities on saturday. ugh.FML

i think my favourite day of the week would have to be wednesday.

why? less subject,bag is not heavy and the teachers are awesome. not really.but..atleast they're sporting enough.

my BM teacher likes to talk and talk and talk and waste time over one small matter. and over a small matter it goes to another matter and another and another.

kuikuikui~

and as for english,i still dont know what to do.

maybe i'll choose depression,menopause or cancer.

cancer as in the deadliest disease in the world.

i mean second deadliest.

hmnnnnn....

FMLmin..

piles of asswork.

2010-03-24T18:21:00.005+08:00

assmaths : lots of question not done due to the idiotness in me and yet tomorrow she wants to check our book .

history : the freaking notes i have to do.now we're in chapter five and my notes are still in chapter 3.yes,my fault.

moral : some report to do,some thinking on how to write the correct words.

BM : the assay. wtf!!

Chemistry : the freaking balance equation. so confusing.

Physics : no homework,but i'm just amazingly stupid at it,therefor i reaaaaaally need to study unless i'll be kicked out of science class.

thats kinda okay with me. i'll learn geography,but then i'll have to catch up on alot of things. =.="

Biology : the report for the PeKA.arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

and then now,english.

we have to do a presentation.mine is about health,okai then. easy to find information,but about what!?

i dont understand . the textbook.

arghhhhhhhhhh!!

i'll just find some about nutrition and the top killer disease in the world.

end.

hahahahahahaha.

stop wasting your time.

2010-03-23T22:23:00.003+08:00

=.="

seems like my sister is having some trouble with her boifriend.

she's worrying about him and also about her work at the same time!!

haih!

i dont think she knows that i know whats happening to her there.

lol.

cuz i've been reading her blog since last year.

since last week,i felt like i need to post some comments,but i'm a coward and i'm scared i'll hurt her feelings when i say " just leave him before he hurts you ".

and then i was thinking of posting a comment,but without her knowing its from me,posting it as anonymous,but still, i think she knows the way i type. my language and so so.

i know i may have not much..or even a single experience on relationships,but hey.i read books,watch movies,listen to musics and people's problem.

i feel sorry for her.i seriously do.

she's serious with him but he's just some shallow creature without commitment.

assholes.

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

relationships sucks because you'll have to go through all these craps.

why cant we just look into each others eyes and fall in love and get married?

lol.

i wish its raining.

2010-03-23T14:54:00.002+08:00

its been a while since it rained.

its hot.super hot.

annoying too.

and i'm annoying too.

i get this mood swings easily,and i let them take over me.

which can cause me,to be hated by some people when i start working with the damn mood swing.

ahh what ever.to hell those freaking annoying mood swing.

blah..

today was great.i laughed and laughed.

we laughed about Grace's brows.

laughed about what'll happen when we grow up.

lol.

thats nice.

hope it can happen again and again and again.

Tika said her friend @MRSM are all nice.

they'll know whats wrong with you once you're acting weirdly.

they just know and she said they share their freaking problems together.

thats nice.

problem is ,i cant share my problems with people.

but i like it when they share their problems with me.

its nice to know that they trust me for telling their fucked up lives/lies.

but its sad to know that i dont trust people as easily as them.

i just dont.

dont mind me

i still wish its raining now.

i was surprised.

2010-03-22T19:18:00.002+08:00

by a friend asking/telling(not sure which,but i think its more to asking.)

" what happened? you've changed.why? whats wrong?"

yeah.so i deleted/deactivated my facebook account.

just a small step for me to focus more on my studies.

but people asked me this and that. i arrived at school today and they start bombing me with the "why" questions.

do i really need a particular reason to delete my facebook account?

no? yes?

i dont think i need to,cause its all because i need to study,and i cant discipline myself for not logging in facebook. well yeah.thats my fault.lol.

i deleted my account,its my account,what is up with you then? you dont own me,you dont know me.

stop asking me questions.

and if i've changed then i'm changed dammit.

thats my new years resolution FYI.

CHANGE.

=.="

i was also surprised by our history teacher today,she cried because someone damn shit clever complained about the way she teaches and that her daughter is disturbing us during PnP.

i went Akira-Shock when she cried. but i kept quite.almost all of us kept quite.

but there's this Samgyeopsal girl,she cant read the mood.she was laughing.

i was like WTF. you're laughing when a teacher is crying?!

i totally understand the teacher's feeling that time. " its the first time ever that a student has done such a thing to me,and i'm very disappointed and sad."is what she said between tears.

now when i study history,all i can think is that teacher.i pity her.

like seriously,we,as in the one class need to say our apologies,even though its not the whole class who's done such thing. its only one person,a parent,who called the principal and complained.

but still, as a student with feelings and heart,we still need to say sorry.

and 3rd surprise,i got A in my history march test.

well, i should be happy,but i'm not.

cause i got A for copying a friend's work. so...yeah.guilty getting an A.the only student in class getting A. but atleast i got 10 marks more that Grace,the girl who's so full of herself when it comes into studying and almost everything.

yes she's confident,but she's overconfident sometimes and likes to degrade people around her.especially the stupid people,like me.

4th~ i also got an A in my maths test! :)

now this one is true effort,no copying~ i hope the marks wont decrease.

its only the test anyway,so obviously its easy.unless probably its the mid term exam,which is in May.

its like the SPMformat papers.

hmnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. oh and mum and dad has been trying so hard to get me out of the house.i wonder why.

since yesterday they we're bringing me everywhere,but i said NO. and NO and NO.

just now my mum asked if i wanted to join her and dad to a farewell party at some hotel.

basically,FOOD. i wonder why i said NO. i mean,its FOOD.

i love food.i dont care if its fattening me.

its FOOD! !

and now i'm hungry. wtf.

no regrets! no regrets.

so thats the story of today.mind my english since i'm stupid.

p/s : there's this puppy sound outside our gate.should i check? what if its just some semi-grown dog that sounded like puppy?

>.<

FML

psychotic depression?

2010-03-21T10:40:00.003+08:00

i dont know.

its ending:holiday,facebook,cellphone

2010-03-20T17:42:00.003+08:00

1 week hol is ending.

back to my usual routine again.

sleep early,study,study study study.

i already miss my sister,she went back to KL again,i heard she's finished what she's doing now probably in Jun.

well, darn it,another 3 months to go.

my oniichan is coming back,late april,early may.

thats good enough.

really.

i actually cried just now when i think about how lonely&dark this house is gonna be at night,

cuz for the past week,my sister was here and she obviously sleep late at night watching TV,and behind the closed door,i can still see the lights and hear noises. now?

*sigh*

and kitty too,shes acting weirdly since..i dont know.shes weird.refuse to sleep with me and let me play with her when i watch TV.rarely got ON the computer and play with darcy.

WTF is wrong!?

FML.

and oh. i wanna stop using my cellphone+facebook.

i want to delete my current facebook too.

why? there's a bunch of people i dont know,wont talk to me and just plain annoying.

i know i am annoying too.

so to prevent them from hating me,might as well just vanish from the F-list.

warrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

gonna delete it soon. after i make a new account and added real human beings that i know.

FMLFMLFML.

*trying my damn hardest to search for some fun, bubbly song to cheer me up.

feel so stupid.

2010-03-19T11:09:00.003+08:00

short post.

i feel so stupid.

12 year olds can write better essay.

even tho its short.

but the points!

the language,the words,the way they beautify the words,using words i wasn't exposed to.(or probably already exposed,but i forgot.since i hate bm)

WTF!?

kiddies,care to tutor me? :D

haih~

another one.

2010-03-19T09:57:00.002+08:00

*sigh*

my youtube account was suspended.

not sure whats the reason,but i think its because i've uploaded some Johnnies Entertainment songs.

what is up with them anyway. the same thing happened when i uploaded YUI's song about 2 years ago.or a year ago.i cant remember.

but my account wasn't suspended.the video i uploaded was deleted.

so there goes the video of last year memories.

its a short video,but i dont know why,i just like it.

FML.

nevermind,i've already created a new account.

面倒な!

Guilty

2010-03-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

went to the bbq party.

had fun,but i feel guilty.

and so i didn't have a lot of fun.

it was more to THEM telling us what to do.this and that.

so annoying.freaking bitches.

but at least i met some of my elementary& kindergarten classmates.(LOL.i cant recognize one of them)

talked and joked around :)

and also met with some of my friends that moved to another school.

gomen.

emo post.

2010-03-17T13:14:00.004+08:00

MUM ! please lah!

we've been planning to do this since last last year lagi!!

today is the only day we can do it! because like any other day you would always say NO NO NO NO NO. freaking NO's annoy me ok?

i know i'm a girl,BUT MUM. i can take care of myself,i have a super loud voice and i can kick ass when i'm super angry.you know that.

maybe you're just protecting me from blah blah blah...i know..

but MUM. i assure you,its OK. i can take care of myself,really!

but again,you'd always say NO NO NO to everything.everything i say.everything i want.EVERYTHING.

what is up with you!?

if onii-chan wants something,you'll give it to him!

and the same goes to onee-chan!

why cant you treat me the way YOU treat THEM!?

you'll say YES YES YES.occasionally, NO.

but me!?

NO NO NO NO NO. and THATS A NO.

Mum, i love you.i really do.but sometimes,they way you treat me and everything.

it just makes me hate you.

i'm sorry.

FML MAX.

2010-03-16T22:07:00.001+08:00

bitching mode .

i fucking hate chemistry and physics and addmaths.

to hell with all those damn formula and and fucking things to remember.

i hate hate hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

OKAI.so i'm not a genius! and i will never BE!!

i'll just be average! FUCK.

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate.

lemme diediediediediediedie!!!!!!!!!!!

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFML.

2010-03-15T13:06:00.002+08:00

i hope dad would tell me earlier,and i would argue with him longer.

i rather have a fight with him than not having my clothes washed.

dad told me a week ago, he wanted to buy a new car.

i was like. "oh..okie~"

and i feel happy.

i didnt think of anything at that particular time,cuz i was busy Youtube-ing.

and then just now,something hit me.

THE FREAKING WASHING MACHINE!!!!

its old! its super old,its super annoying cuz you have to adjust it here and there!!

you wont know when its gonna spin dry/wash/rinse!!!

cuz the thing is so damn fucked already!!!!

we've been paying it for so called repairing but NONE is freaking repaired!!!

i told mum&dad to buy new one,but they would always say " see first..see first"

WTF!? you see!? YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!?

its so freaking annoying!

i rather have a brand new washing machine than have a brand new car.

FML+++++++++++.

but still,mum and dad were discussing about giving me the green light for taking driving license.

but...only when i'm 16,after my birthday. and that is...on..NOVEMBER!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

but again,they were just discussing. and talking about mum&dad,what ever comes out from their mouth about giving me things i want are just freaking big fat lies.

daite daite daite~

2010-03-15T00:16:00.003+08:00

wtf. i am addicted to this song again!!

and it makes me wanna watch Kurosagi again and again and again.

wtffffffffff. i havent watch the movie!!

i'm too lazy baaaaaaaaaaa. i hate waiting.

lol.

daite daite daite senorita!!! :D

ekekekeke...

oh ya.i've finished my maths homework! yeay~

i dont know. i think maths is easier(obviously,since theres no ADDITIONAL infront of it).

adieu~

deleting.

2010-03-14T16:35:00.002+08:00

yeah.goodbye to bittersweet memories of blogging.

i've deleted some ..i mean ..'08 and some '09 posts.

i dont know why.

my presentation on my oral test/LBS(sp??) was about steps to become an optimistic person.

one way is to stop dwelling over the past,either with good or bad times or even worrying about the future.

yeaaa :)

i'm trying to practice those steps bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

i want to be more optimistic so i'll live longer than you pessimist!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA.

wakakakakka

its that time again.wtf.

2010-03-13T09:57:00.004+08:00

haih. i hate it i hate it i hate it! every woman in this small world hate it too. ask them and they will surely say YES.i hate it.

>.<

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

enough pms-ing.

now i wanna talk about JUMP. its been a while since i talked about them.

haha. actually,i have no intentions of searching for some updates. i always receive the updates from Nat,but now Nat is so madly in love with her KATTUN, and me with NewS, i guess theres gonna be no update about them to myself.

lol. but i dont know. i saw their PV, Hitomi No Screen. kinda okaaaaaaai-ish. didnt finish it. i dont know. yes,they're growing up, but look at Kanjani,NewS,arashi~ their PV. some is grown up,some is just made to entertain :D

oh how i missed the Dreams Comes True PV. if only they make more PV like that ne?

look at how much my so called otouto has grown up. HAHAH! F Dreamers LIFE.

morimoto ryutaro.

my so called otouto~

has grown up nao.

he was stalked..last year if i'm not mistaken.

hahahahahhahaha xD

he reallllllllllllllly looks like my cousin oh.

wtf. so damn cute.

keichan on the left,yuto on the right.

wtffffffffffffffff.

why so damn tall !?

FML.

i hate my height.so short~

randomness

2010-03-12T15:33:00.006+08:00

random story.

1. some of my friends are going out tomorrow,i want too,but.. i still have to ask mum for permission and also transportation. ughhhhhhhhh.

2. i failed my physics and addmaths.

i have no doubt that i'll fail physics,but addmaths...was kinda sad.

whatever,i'll just have to study hard from now on.

3. there's this spanish guy who was lost at school. he sat near the library,so when Papa John asked him,papa John made a weird face a.k.a WTF are u talking about? and left the spanish guy.

and then teacher lim asked him, and now we know the answer,he said " NO ENGRISH."

and teacher asked him or probably wondered to herself " then what you want me to do!?"

and he said " spanish.spanish."

and she left,dunnow what to do.

and then i saw teacher mercy talked to him,then he walked out of our school.after a few minutes,he's back.

LOL.

and i never knew what happened to him after that,cuz i went back home.

i pity him. but..he should atleast have a map/ talk english to travel. right?

and the reason he's been told to leave the school was basically because its an all girls school. he's a threat,LOL.jkjk. but still, he cant speak english so we cant help him. poor spanish guy.

and then Mal said,next year there'll be a new subject added ,"forgein language"

LOL. i'll take that in Uni ok? XD

4. i'm so hungry,there's food in the kitchen yes,but i'm too choosy,and its fish. wtf? i dont hate fish but the fish has got looooooooooooooooooooooooads of annoying bones. which i hated the most about eating fish,cuz the bone would always get stucked to my tongsils. FML.

5. i wanna cut my hair so so so bad but i want to keep it long. wtf. even my bangs are long,but i dont care.hahaha.

6. blahblahblah. i guess Grace(the tensai in our class/batch) was jealous when i raised up my hands when the teacher asked who had finished the homework she gave us. cuz she havent finished hers and she kinda ignored me when i talked to her,usually yes,she would ignore people cuz she's so damn full of herself,but this ignorance,is kinda..to me only,cuz she talked with Wilhelma too. LULz. i dont care,after that we talked also bah. when ever we had a fight,it would be completely forgotten after that. hahaha.

7. sis coming back tomorrow,she said she bought me something.yeay! she sms-ed me 2 weeks ago saying that she bought a jacket. yipeeeeeeeeeeeee :D cant wait~~jahahaha.

8. i bought a new umbrella 2 weeks ago too, and it was quite pricy for an umbrella. but the umbrella is scam shit. cuz when i used it,it kinda closes by itself,kenot tahan strong wind.wtf. my old umbrella was better.but mum kenot remember where she bought it. wtf. so sad.

9. i'm determined to do the history&addmaths workbook. and finish my homework ASAP,so i can enjoy more.since a lot of the teachers,even the principle said " You girls ENJOY your holiday"

"have a relaxing holiday"..blah blah..

usually the teachers/principle would say " study hard,dont relax too much"

something like that. gosh.so suspicious lah.

10. i dont really hate Bah-girl, its just that,when ever i pity her,she makes me pissed off. seriously, she's a nice girl.but sometimes...she's just...freakishly annoying.

sorry.

blah.look at sexy guy below :D

happy holiday :)

hols and bad dream.

2010-03-10T16:54:00.005+08:00

cant wait for school hols! last bell that rings on friday!!!!! I CANT FREAKING WAIT!

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!

but before that,like always,there'll always be some freaking shitty obstacles ne?

like....getting to know my physics,chemistry,BM,history,maths and ADDMATHS marks.

and getting my ears washed by my dearest teacher.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.its O-K.

hopefully.i'm still hoping for the best bah.

not like what i dreamt last night!

i dreamt that i got a single number on my addmaths,no its not a zero, but 3/100.

i was like WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then i woke up and realize that it was just a bad bad bad bad dream.

i prayed,thank god and get ready for school.

and then found out that Bunny haz some weird dream too.

1 : Tira was being shot by cikgu Zior,because he's a mean person.

2 : i moved out of stella maris to KKHigh.

i LOL-ed @ both dreams.but i cant LOL at my own dream.

okaiokai.

thats just some weird,i dont know what sign dream.

i think it was because i think a lot about my marks on my addmaths paper yesterday,i think about it so so bad lah.

but..i hope its okay.tomorrow have double period for addmaths,single period for physics,chemistry and maths.

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

blah blah blah.

looking at them makes me happy :)

"Massu"da Takahisa :P

Yuyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

wtf.he should be nakahara sunako.

so addicted to skulls.

>.<

yeay food.

2010-03-09T21:01:00.002+08:00

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaay~

bro and his wife brought food !! Pizzaaaa!!

i was actually hungry,but mum didnt left any food thats enough for freeloader,my cousin and me.

so...well, i just let them eat lahh..

since they're working 8 hours a day.

lol.

my kindness haz been payed.kikikikiki.

nom nom nom!

i feel soooooo full !

and fat.

lol.

thanks brooooooooooooo and wifeeeeeee. LOL.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFML.

2010-03-09T15:01:00.003+08:00

addmaths so damn confusing.

i just cant believe i forgot the formula and the way to do it.

i mean,i woke up at 4 AM this morning,to do some revisions on that ONE subject only!

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

so now i have to choose,either to stand up,facing the la salle school during addmaths for 2 weeks,do performance inside the CR,make sure,its funny/entertaining OR do something during recess @ the DJ corner.

wtf!?

if i have to choose,then i rather stand up facing la salle school. who cares. 2 weeks only.

BUT. some of my friends want to try and negotiate with the teacher to give us 50 Question as our punishment for failing. lol. 50 question to do during this school hols.

BUT!! thats if...she can finish marking our paper by this week. if not?

warrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

FFFML MAX.

and yet its just a TEST. THE 1ST TEST!! >.<

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.i dun care.its so typical me anyway,to fail.

this guy can make me happy :)

tongue twister.

2010-03-08T19:23:00.003+08:00

o hai!

i'm back! hahaha.

today's paper was suicidal. and this is just a TEST! wtf am i gonna do on the actual exam?

physics and chemistry was exceptionally hard,why? didnt study.hahahaha. and i actually hate hate hate haateeeeeeeeeeeeeeee physics. seriously!thank god i've never dream of being an engineer,otherwise.... lol.

so...

last paper to take tomorrow is AddMaths :D

i know its hard,but i'll study afterwards~teheeeeeeeeee.

anyway, i'm starting to download some korean songs already.lolz.

nothing to be proud of, but..i will never ever leave NewS & YUI & Arashi behind :)

currently i am super addicted to the ring ding dong song and also i dont care.

and seriously, i cant sing along. why? korean so hard to pronounce. my tongue gets twisted like i'm reading some very very difficult tongue twister. lol.

haiz.

other than the korean songs kan....

i am seriously in love with NewS - Forever & Cherish.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

code blue 2 !! cant wait to watch you during school hols.

muahahahhaha

going somewhere.hopefully.

2010-03-05T18:42:00.004+08:00

yesyes. i'm going on some super mini hiatus.

its been a while anyway since i've updated,but with my and Gods' will, then i'll update more.

so tomorrow,saturday, we have school. and test. >.<

havent studied yet.too lazy. i officially hate the history book. so thick.. >.<

we also have test on monday and tuesday.

and on monday,we have this short drama during the assembly. i was like WTF?

and teacher said " all of you must participate, if not enough character,then let the others be bystanders."

so i'm the police,along with Era too :D

its about what drugs can do to you,since this whole week we have this anti-drugs week,so on monday its the last day,and also the closing ceremony. >.<

i hate going up on stage. even like 2 weeks ago,when my friend asked me to act as some person who knows about the SERASI, i was nervous. hahaha.

but i have to do it anyway,cuz on that day we have test,and i cant miss it! unless i have the mc and some super good reason why i cant attend school that day. so...no escaping. damn!

*sigh*

i tried reading the history book,but its just too damn boring for me and too thick! and and theres a lot of alphabets. i hate reading them. lol.

is this how i'll study when i'm in college!? >.<

*sighsigh*

i told a couple of my friends that i rather marry with some rich guy that study study study.

wakakakkakakakaka.

but come to think of it again and again and again,education is important. right? >.<

i wanted to be a teacher but i'm soooo against studying. ahahaha

okai.enough complaining. i need to read damn history and some BM books.

probably i'll be doing the Wake Up! Daisakusen again...

like what i did last year,which helped me with my geography :)

so now, i'm actually forcing myself to love history again....

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

so its also been a while since i've posted some pics. so here is some..haha.

just some random pics i came across. so sweet~ :P

Younger Pi.

in my opinion,back then,like when he was still

a teenager,its nice to see him smile often.

but now a days,its quite hard to see him smile..

like....ughhh..i dont know.but who i am to judge anyway?

i still love him!

Uchi Hiroki.

i never really knew him actually,or even heard about him.

because i started to be a fan of NewS when they were already

6 members.

but as i listen to their old songs and stuffs...i realized that there was actually

8 members,including Kusano Hironori.

i never really knew why he was called Notti.

probably just in fanfics maybe? i dont know.

come baaaaaaaaaaaack you two!! >.<

so cute.

hahaha. like..no words can express how i feel now.

Tegoshi Yuya.

gahahahha.

true,he was an ugly ducking back then.

but as he grow up...

i dont know what to say.

people change a lot ne?

i actually saw his Johnny Photoshop the other day,

maybe the newest, i dont know.

but i purposely didnt take that picture because..

because he looks thin and sick.

>.<

so,people change ne?

hopefully they would just take care of themselves. lol.

if i am not happy,then the fans are not happy too.

hahaha.

so byebye!
ganbatte to all SMSM students.

oh and ahahahahah! tomorrow the evening session girls will be taking their test outside of classroom, and in the open hall. the hot hot hot hall.

good luck with that girls.... :P

handwriting

2010-03-03T18:45:00.002+08:00

yes.topic of today is handwriting,my handwriting to be exact.

its sooooooo.. UG. LEE.

so small, sometimes its big..sometimes its small...

haiz. so how do i improve my handwriting?

i'm very very very jealous of the people with good handwritings.

ish.

new new new :D

2010-03-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

ahahahha.yes! finally!

the new CPU is here,along with a new mouse and keyboard.so when i type,it doesnt make annoying typing noises. haha!

its all black,and i dont know what brand it is.i dont even care.all i care is that nao the internet is faster and i can watch Yuya :)

hahaha.oh yea. now doing some research for the moral assignment,i feel dumber when i read little 12 year old kids who can do super awesome essay.

yes,my bm is bad.really bad. i dont speak bm like real bm,i speak the sabahan bm . haha.

so thats why lah. chey.

and i dont even speak english like real english, i speak like malaysia english(thats what our teacher said)

lol.

okai.very sleepy. have to sleep lah.

byebye.

i love the new keyboard.its blackkk and no noisee!! hahahahaha

i haz book.

2010-03-01T19:53:00.002+08:00

yes.

hahaha. i have some revision and also some work book :D

proud proud. lol.

damn i really hate physics.

seriously,its not worth it buying thick revision books for me,cuz i'm too stupid to understand anyway.

haha.i admit i am stupid in physics :)

weeeeeeeeee~

the teacher gave us works to do,i cant understand a thing,even with the revision and text book and examples and all . my gad.so stupid.hahaha.

and i've bought komsas and history reference book,so hopefully i wont fail in either bm/history in this coming test.if i have low marks,its socaaaaay.i just dont want to fail. teheeee.

and i also bought addmaths workbook.

just started doing it just now,just stopped for some...rest.hehe.

so again,that,hopefully can finish till the end of the year/after every chapter finish so that i wont waste money and not be stupid.

wakakakka.

and weeeeeeeeeeee :)

i feel happy.

dunnoe why.but its good for me,my heart,my mind and my soul ;)

okie.dats all. hahaha.

computer still broken.nao still using laptop :)

i've DL-ed google chrome since explorer was freaking stressing me. lol.

yay for me.so hopefully there's no virus or what so ever .haha.

ok.dats all.

oh wait. yeah. so this week we have this mencegah dadah week,and tomorrow we all have to draw poster thats related with mencegah dadah.

but we cant draw the drugs,needle and blah blah blah.

so what are we/ I suppose to draw then?

i'm bad at drawing,never even have a passion for drawing,just doodling.

wtf am i going to do ! i rather study bio than draw.

ok.dats all.haha.

bai ~

i am confirmed.

2010-02-28T10:17:00.002+08:00

yeeeepiiiii.

i have been confirmed ~

yeay.

i was reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally nervous.

hahaha.

but in the end,it all just went smoothly and as planned :)

but still, we have bible class.

hopefully,its not boring and all.

hahaha.

okie.so now its gonna be official. aahahaha.

A.J Anastasia.

i love my name more.kekekekke.

no pain no loss.

2010-02-27T22:05:00.002+08:00

no pain,no loss.

got pain,got loss.

phew.

a bit better nao.

i've talk to a friend. helped me out a bit.

thanks to charmaine and nadhirah :)

love you babes.

haha.

wanna text this person,but afraid if the person thinks i'm too...busybody or something.

i've disturbed this person twice nao.

so gonna puasa from kacau-ing that person for a while lah.

that person oso nice one,kasi kawan me sms till i was tired.

and then...

theres this person i dont like.

now i know gaya you like this,and why my friend tidak suka with you masa you ulu her.

you oso the same as them all. she said.

dunnow la.

i think you're an inconsiderate bitch who is just dying to get attention or trying to be the right one.

i hate you.

i'm not being judgmental or anything,but its true.you're inconsiderate.based on some incident that happened..

you ckp your ego is tinggi lah.watever la.

nao you just the same as some other bitch.classify you with them.baru ngam.kan?

go die,rot,burn watever in hell.

hope you feel pain one whole body.

like seriously,you can FML nao.

2010-02-27T11:20:00.003+08:00

WTF oh!?

it feels like the whole world is against me.

FML!

damndamndamndamndamn.

no music.no music.kenot study.stupid appointment.cannot concentrate.parents having fun at some water rafting.mum wont cut my skirt.my wont edit my blouse.i look hideous.haiiiiiz.printer fail.computer fail.internet fail.sound device fail.everything fail for me.FML!!

no food.damn hungry.no milo.toilet broom fail me.now kenot clean the toilet.

dunnow what to look for the moral article.so damn.rather die than grow up.

i hate it !!!!!!!!! the so called challenges.damndamndamn. i miss brother oredy.atleast if he's here,he'll download the sound device or do something about the sound.

damn.now just missed 30mins of the house bunny.

FML TO THE MEGA.

wan die now.bye.

i hate it when it happens.

2010-02-26T16:42:00.002+08:00

when the computer went againts your will.

FML.

its been like what..10 days or so?
i feel like its been forever.no music,no facebook,no youtube,no blogging,no jdrama.

like OMG. i want to die.

nao using laptop,sucky. internet so slow one,thats why.
and not used to typing using laptop.

so my typing speed haz decreased.

and next week we have our monthly test.
dayum i hate test.

the history test,up to chapter 3. warghhhhhhhh!
physic,chem,bio,bm,english,moral,history,addm3 and m3.

omaigaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!!!

these are the subjects that i'm taking.

if only i can drop physic and maths,my life would be much easier.

like,seriously.hahahah.

i'm kinda nervous ouuh. as usual.

haiz. nemind...i believe i still got enough time to revise if only i have my daily dose of japanese medecine :)

and oh yeah. currently addicted to this dayum ring ding dong song.

hahahahahha!!!

the beattt! just so damn addicting oh! i tell you!

hahahahaha.

okai enough.

i miss yuya.

(aahahah..the way i mention i miss yuya~ XD like like....hahaha teda la.a fangirl can dream.wakakakka)

boku wa tensai

2010-02-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

i've been hummin some random tune that suddenly came up in my mind,but i really,seriously dont know what song that i'm humming.

i try to fit the hum with some random anime songs that i've watched,but..NOTHING! nothing can fit. damn me. i forgot...

and then and then...i hum all day.....

and then i sat here,click YouTube and just type WaT-Hava Rava.

and..

HELL YEAH ITS THE SONG! bwahahhaha~

i'm such a tensai :) aren't you jealous?

just like that*snaps finger* and i found what song it was.

wow.

i dont even know the words to the song, i was just humming!!

and and...what makes me wonder is,how come suddenly i hum the song? lol.

i started humming this morning when i was cleaning the house. >.<>

okai enuf.

yesterday.

2010-02-15T07:08:00.001+08:00

so yesterday, i went to my aunty's place.

and blahblahblah.ate alot and receive angpows :D

wont say the amount tho.its small,but atleast i have some.muahahahhaha..

and yes,about my mommy.

she went for a surgery.

eye surgery. ew.i cant look at her,i'm scared.lol.

well, not the eye balls,but the eye lids.hahaxD

so scary,its all red and when she put the medicine,its all ....oily? lul.

hope she get well soon,very soon,cuz by sunday next week, i have confirmation,of course i want my mum to be there.hahaha.

ok dats all.i'm too bored i'm gonna watch kimi wa petto.

p/s : i wanna watch HYD,but...but...warghhhhhhh! JUN IS INNIT DAMIT! both of the drama.

wakakkaakakkaka.

valentines new year gathering :)

2010-02-14T10:06:00.003+08:00

happy chinese new year and happy valentines day! :D

yeay! red packets! woot!!

i dont celebrate CNY cuz i'm not chinese,although i look like one. lol. i'm a christian and i celebrate christmas and kaamatan only.ze end. haha :)

but you know here in malaysia,we celebrate every race/religion celebration like it was ours even thouugh its not. wtf? XD

okai.so enough. i'm going to my aunty's place today...

>.<>

and then its valentines day too..

i dont have any special person to celebrate it with,but i'm not sad or anything.

i mean, i have my family. we can celebrate valentines together as a family deshou?

i laughed so hard yesterday and the day before yesterday. why?

well,haha. some people in facebook have no dates/special person to celebrate it with, so they post emo/how sad they are that they doesnt have a date.

hahahahahaha! i LOL so hard.

status like : i'm so sad,no special person to celebrate with during valentines day / i need a couple on V.day so that i wont feel lonely/ i need sumone on V.day.. etcetc.

i was like wtf.

well, wanna know one thing? most of the status like that we're posted by guys.

between the ages of 13-20.

OMG.

13? yes,its true.13 years old.

he was so desperate in one of his status,so i was like..wtf..you're 13,so i went and reply to his status, liddis : " lol. why so desperate ?"

and he replied " of course lah."

i was like WTF?

kids.hahahahahhahahahhaa.

okaiokai.enough of making fun of little immature teenager kids.hahaha.and shallow creatures :D

i'll update later after the valentines new year gathering :D

and abit about my mum. >.<

teheeeeeeee!!!

oh shallow creatures.

2010-02-12T08:07:00.002+08:00

how i hate you very much.

stupidstupidstupid!

YOU! should just die,rot and burn in hell.

YOU! should just die from being tortured endlessly.

YOU! should feel pain satu badan.

haiz.

okaiokai!

now i am the inconsiderate person here.

but who cares. i dont.

becaues that person started it first.

and want to know something more?
YOU! just lost a friend. i'm out. i dont care. you're so stupid,inconsiderate and thinks you're so hensom lah? fuck you.

you're the ugliest creature i've ever seen.

go die.

fuck you.fuck you very very much.

so please,dont stay in touch okai?

freaking shit day.

2010-02-10T17:44:00.003+08:00

oh hai.

you know what, i went running around the school in my uniform today.

for what?

not bringing my PE clothes. why? cuz i'm lazy,have no other clothes since yesterday was the sports day,i got sunburn,and my skin is itchy when i get into the sun. so i want to try and avoid.

but guess who told us to run in our uniform?

the damn,freaking,brain-less,stupid,big headed,toad faced principle.

yeah.

wanna know what she said to me?

" you cannot think of other way? this is what i call brainless."

yeah fuck you.

shut up. you're the brainless one toad faced asshole.

she told us to run 5 rounds around the school but suddenly she stopped us since she saw Phillis and i talking,so she double the run. fuck you again.

well, i was okai then.but now? my skin is extreamly itchy. fuck you again.

i hate her since she first showed her face in our school.

i miss madam clare. she's better.BETTER than toad faced. seriously,although,of course,madam clare sometime piss us off,but she is nice. she never yells at student. never slap at the student,NEVER EVER say bad things at the student,for example,"you're brainless".

NO.she never said that.

fucking hate the new princple.

fuck you. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

you should just diediediediedie.

her and her stupid rules,i freaking hate it.

no,not just me.all of the students,probably the teachers too.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

maigad. can i survive 2 years with toad faced?

i hate her i hate her i hate her.

freaking hate her!

teh fuck!

I HATE HER!

she should die and rot in hell.

understand

2010-02-08T15:15:00.003+08:00

understand-YUI

i actually miss the song.

miss YUI.miss singing her songs.miss watching sad movies,and crying or even trying to hold back the tears.

i wanna cry oh. wtf?

dunnow why.

but i actually feel something inside,which i cant let go.so crying will help.

haha.

ok.

so dayum hot now.

i want rain ~~~

fangerl needs surgery too.

2010-02-07T09:37:00.004+08:00

so ghey >.<

fallen in love with Uchi ordy.

but just now i listen to Sunadokei,Yuya version,then i fell for him again.

wakakkaka.

my god. i have no pendirian oh.

have no idea.

oh yeah.my grandma is coming today! and probably will be living with us! cuz kan,she needs Xray and surgery!! :O

hopefully the surgery goes well.

so scary.

even mum's getting a surgery.

ISH!!!!

i want too.

sedut the fats!

and have double eye-lids.

kekekekkekekek.

geee i'm so weird.

haha~

Tegoshi Yuya-Sunadokei

i'm weird

2010-02-06T13:07:00.002+08:00

yes.

i am.

*sigh*

i actually admit that i'm weird..

omegad.cant believe i just did.

but its true.

i'm weirder at home than at school.

nemind.

one person already know that i'm weird.

so,thats enough.

haha.

and we have dirty water supply oh!!

damit!

haven't wash the laundry yet.

maigaddddddddd!

homestay and carutan.wtf?

2010-02-03T19:22:00.002+08:00

i wanna go!!

anywhere deh!

i want to go so bad ! dayum.

so shiok ba.

even the visit msia ad makes me wanna go there.

lol.

during bm today we talked about dialect,so,our bm teacher was from selangor and she told us her stories as a farmers' daughter? wtf..dunow la.sumthing like that.hahaha

so shiok until i oso wanna go.

lulz.

biar la..1st at msia,den at other places doh.

i wanna round the whole msia den go out of it.

wakkakakakka..

so i can compare.

HAHAHAHAHA!

fml.wats happening to me? haiya.

no water,said daddy.

wtf? and i have to wash my hair agen.dayuuuuuuuuuum!!

my hp got no kdrt agen..

adedeehhhhhhhh..

people so kedekut one.

me oso ba.hahahahahha..

nemind..nemind.....

ok nao bai.

need to mandi and study damn adm3 and phy.

i hate physics!!!!